stretch my neck to look up to him
29/06/2005 // 10:28 pm
i am sooo tired.
working earlier hours isn't so bad. in fact, it's good. but i haven't been going to bed early enough to make up for the whole not sleeping in thing.
what day is it? wednesday. so, monday night k and i watched closer after i got off work. we did something else first.... oh yeah, we went out for sushi and gelato after work. walk. then movie. then sleep.
tuesday, tuesday... it rained in the morning. we went to crappy tire and he bought a pressure gauge, then we checked all his tires at a gas station (something's super wrong with one of them. pershmaps work related? don't know). i stood out and held an umbrella for him. like a slave. a man drove by and gave k thumbs up. mundane things rawk. then we went out for lunch. then to work. then after work we went for a walk. picked up my cable modem from the old place. that was weird.
minute by minute recounts of my life are exciting.
so. saw mike for the first time in probably over a month. he looked like shit. he looked on the verge of tears. it was awful. i felt really bad that i just showed up, but his voice mail was full and his phone was off, or something. and i just wanted to get as much as i could over with. i attempted small talk, but it didn't go well AT all. so, over and out on that.
k and i went to safeway and bought some vegetables and happy planet. we had speghetti squash at midnight. then stayed up for quite a while.
this morning my phone rang at 8:18. it was the god-awful-annoying mike ring. he called to tell me that i needed to call and transfer my internet subscription. thanks einstein. i think i knew that, seeing as how i picked up the modem the night before. anyway, 8:00 was farrrr to early for us to be waking up, and now i feel like S-H-I-T. i barely made it through my shift at work. i barely made the half hour walk home without stumbling over curbs. i HATE being abruptly woken up. and then because of people waking up and walking around the house, and having two extra people over = extra noise, i couldn't get back to sleep. and now i don't feel bad at all for going over there last night and disturbing mike. because, i just don't. just super annoyed.
so, k and i got up and drove a friend of mine to the airport (charity drive!) so he can begin his trip around the world. apparently departure for a six month trip around the world would suck balls if it started with a cab ride. i'd do it.
had lunch at a pub. but i couldn't eat. grossness. then i went to work, and k came back here for something. that's right. i gave him keys to a house that i don't even technically live in, and let him come back here alone.
only two more sleeps here. i need to call and get my utilities set up. what i really need is to stop playing around and get responsible. oh. and i still need to buy something to sleep on. why the fuck did i decide to leave my bed? it wasn't guilt. was it pity?
i need sleep. bad.
another week, another dollar
27/06/2005 // 12:06 am
this weekend has been pretty relaxed.
friday night i went out to the kilkenney after work. it was a friend's going away party before his trip around the world. :( met some friend's of friends there, they came back and did lines of coke here. good times.
saturday i actually went to a bbq at their house with dan. that's where i found out that they work for clients of the company i work for. and make big cash doing so. and do what i soon hope to be doing. i think kim and dan were trying to set me up with one of them. or all three of them. it makes me kinda sad that my friends have a preconceived notion that i can't be single. i can. and i will be. set me up with someone desperate and it's bount to work out. it almost feels like me living alone is going to hurt them. anyway, nobody did any coke saturday night. it was just good clean basement pool shooting the shit fun.
today was just lazing around. cleaning up the computer. buying some groceries. i actually just tried nestle quick cereal for the first time with kim. dan is introducing us to super refined sugar products available in the cereal isle.
i think it was a good weekend. i didn't do as much as i wanted, but i've felt super tired and unmotivated to get very far off my ass. i am going to have to gear up for my big move out very soon. and i'm working earlier hours next week. should be interesting, day shift is even more white trash where i work than the people who come in at night.